The fight to be a scriptwriter

"Who is Jesus to you?"

I've been asked that question various times, and while His character never changes perhaps the title that I cling to most does based on what I'm learning at the time. I was at the beach with a dear friend and as we were going through Matthew 5, she asked me this.

The first thing that came to my mind was "director." I meant that as a director of steps, as in Him directing me where to go next in life. However, she made the connection between the way I am passionate about creating videos and the way the Lord coordinates the details of our life as pieced-together scenes that create a movie. How worthy is He of the title "Director."

Yet I also dove into what the title Director means for me. Whether we are passionate about writing or not, the truth is that we all want to write our own stories. We have places that we would love to go, people we want to be with, things we want to accomplish, and names that we want to acquire. Whether we want to admit it or not, we can fall into the trap of holding our plans up to God and asking Him to put His stamp of approval on them and whisk it all together as reality. Failing to see that He is God and we are not. There is so much that He sees that we do not.

Recently I've been going through the book of Job and am so humbled and amazed at Job's questions. How confused must he have been at God's choice in scriptwriting when he had served the Lord his whole life yet had everything stripped away from him? How broken and betrayed he must have felt. In chapter 22 verses 3-4 he states,

"If only I knew where to find him if only I could go to his dwelling! I would state my case before him and fill my mouth with arguments."

I can feel the weight of Job's pain but then smile at his response after an encounter where the Lord speaks and reminds him of His glory.

In chapter 42 he says, "I know that you can do all things and no plan of yours can be thwarted... Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me."

I'm sure Job would have told God that he could have done a better job of writing the script. There is beauty in the surrender of not claiming the title writer. We will one day see that the Lord does a far better job writing than we ever could.